Gratitude

I have had many incedence now where i am left without a housekeeper. I live in a big house which has three flights of stairs plus an outside patio in the front and the back. Living in this house without help is too challenging. I have noticed a pattern, every time I am left without a housekpeeper for a few months, my health begins to decline. My body aches more on a daily basis, I get soar throats and coughs and most of the time I end up having to take an antibiotic. Right now, I am again left without a housekeeper because of another strange incident and now I have a soar throat and extreme body ache. Of course all this effects my mood, feeling low and extremely tired and have a short tolerance.

I am so grateful that I am even able to get help. I think about all those people with MS who have kids and homes and may not be able to afford extra help and I feel gratitude. Thank you God. For now, it's part time help every now and then and with the will of God I will manage my situation without getting too sick. I am hopeful and I pray I will settle with a good housekeeper at the end.

I would like to live in a simpler house. Preferable no stairs and lots of storage space. But for now, I pray to be strong in this challenging time and try to overcome the physical weakness.

Extreme Fatigue

I have been feeling extremely tired for the past few months. I haven't had a housekeeper since beginning of September so more then two months and a half. This happened to me before about two years ago. My old housekeeper left and It took a long time for the replacement to come. I remember how hard it was for me then as well. I wake up everyday with pain in the soles of my feet and heels. I drag myself out of bed get the lunch boxes ready send off the kids to school and tidy the house as much as I can. I miss having more energy to do more things.

I think about energy a lot lately. I want to do so much to increase it. I am trying to eat well, but it's hard to enjoy eating when you are always doing things in the house for the kids and homework and baths and reading. Kids are also hard to handle when you are tired. I pray I will be a better mother. Have more patience. But it's so hard when you are facing physical challenges and no one really understands what you are going through. My comfort is that God does. He knows exactly how I am feeling, therefore I leave it to you God.

I have so many things I want to accomplish but so little energy. I will probably be getting a new housekeeper at the beginning of 2012. I pray she will be good and that 2012 will be my best year yet! As I sit here on the computer I feel every joint and muscle in my body ache. I know this feeling will not last and that maybe in the next hour or so I will feel better. It's like that for me. I go through different energy levels throughout the day. One hour I feel useless with absolutely no energy and the next I feel a bit better. I know this is all because I don't get enough sleep and rest. I don’t need more than 8 hours of sleep a night, but what I do need is non interrupted sleep. My daughter God bless her usually wakes me up once in the night.

Last night I worked until 10:30 on my business even though i really shouldn’t' have. I keep telling myself I wont work on anything after 8 to give my mind peace and rest before I sleep, but there is so much work to be done and I really want our business to be a success. I want to have a steady income from my own business. In today’s turbulent market I feel this is what will secure my future. With the will of God, all my fatigue and daily physically challenges will all pay off.

Still Incredibly Happy to be off Drugs

It's been a while since I last updated my blog. Life is good thanks to God. I'm currently on vacation. I had a very challenging time before I came home to visit my parents. My daughter had to do an operation to remove her tonsils. My housekeeper left and I had to look for a replacement. I feel so much pressure when i have a lot of events hit at once. Now I feel fantastic. I'm eating well, sleeping well, life is good. I always feel so wonderful when I enter my parents house. It's comfort, joy, peace of mind. My kids are also having a great time. I enrolled them in a summer camp which is keeping them busy.

I'm going to update my website pages today and add Dr. Mercola's website. I've been reading his updates for the past few months and I just love the information he brings. Really by far the best Natural Health Newsletter I've ever received.

I am waiting to hear fromt the client for a poject for my business. I'm still very hopeful. I believe it will be a huge success with the will of God.

Not Sleeping Well

Well my mood has been normal, and not much to complain about except I have not been sleeping well for the past few days maybe two weeks. Just don't sleep deeply and wake up during the night. It get's me a bit worried about my health. Due to the lack of sleep, i only went to the gym once this week, which i'm not to happy about. With the will of God my body will snap back and I will be able to get deep sleep soon.

Vacation Update

So I came back from a vacation which I enjoyed tremendously. My body coped well with the strain of lots of walking and long air flights plus taking care of the kids. I still took my vitamins and ate as healthy as I could.

I experienced so many new things which let me get out of my box for a while, which was really amazing. We live so long in our routines that we forget the wonders of this amazing world.

I also did things that I normally would be scared to do. I have a fear of hights, yet I went on a very high cable car which had different stops up the mountains. I was quite nervous and holding tightly on to the kids, but I managed and was very happy I experienced it. I realized how much fear I have and how little fear most everyone around me had. I also realized I have more fear after I had children. I am afraid for them which heighten my fear.

There was this one man who was on stretchers who I admired tremendously. He went all the way up then walked on steep stairs that went around the mountain to a suspended bridge and it was a challenge for me without stretchers. I love it when I see people who are determined to experience things no matter what challenge they are facing. I pray I will be less afraid.

Feeling Great

Thanks to God, I am feeling great. I wake up early, I sleep deeply and I have good energy. I am accomplishing more then usual and I'm just feeling mentally and physically alive. I also have been going to exercise classes a lot more which definitely makes me feel stronger. Exercise is probably what is making me feel stronger. I would like to stick to at least 3 times a week going to my classes and I am happy. I am doing body balance, yoga, body pump and pilates. Body pump is great because i use weights, body balance, yoga and pilots i am using my own body for strength. I pray my business will also take off. Still have a lot of work to get it going, but I am hopeful.

Good News

So I went to the doctor yesterday to follow up on the blood tests and MRI that i did. It has been six months since I stopped taking the medication and I was a bit nervous. Are there going to be new lesions? Will I have to go back on the medication? I had felt a bit of tingling in my head and I also had headaches recently but i was also very tired because of other life situations i was going through. So, these were the thoughts i had. I have been so happy not having to take the injections and I didn't feel depressed at times like I did when I was on the medication.

Thankfully when the doctor opened up my reports he told me that all was great! No new lesions and the old ones have had no significant change. My blood tests were also all good. I am very relieved and happy and I want to remain commited to my health. With the will of God, I will remain strong and sturdy without the medication. I still want to commit more to doing more excersize and of course stick to taking my vitamins.