Off Avonex

I went to see my doctor. I told him I felt the medication was effecting my mood, so he said I can take a month break from the medication to see if its from MS or the Avonex. I am going to take an MRI as well and see how things are going. With the will of God, I am improving and being off the medication means I will have more energy to live my life to the fullest. Today I am going back to Yoga!

Making a Commitment

I have had it with the way I feel depleted of energy these days. My arms and legs are weak. I have a low mood low everything. I don't believe the medication is doing me justice. I want to stop now. I will go and see my doctor and tell him my plans to take a break from the meds. I will then focus on life! I will focus on health! I will have energy to do that! I believe in my heart its the right thing to do with the will of God I will stick to my decision.

Inspired By Nick Vujicic

This morning I woke up and got a forward from a friend. I opened it up to read an inspirational speech from a 25 year old man who was born without limbs. No arms and no legs! I watched his youtube speech and was in awe of his incredible strength and adorable personality. He has a great sense of humor! Despite the challenge of living in a society where different is not always tolerated, he overcame all odds inspiring others to see that God can help you overcome anything. God bless Nick Vujicic and his message.

Back from a small Holiday

I went to visit my family and the weather was very cold. It was a good change but physically I felt I got tired because I didn't sleep well. My children woke me up a lot. Sleep is so important in my life and it is also something that can get disrupted very easily. Both my children injured them selves the nine days I was visiting my family. My son fell on his face on the pavement and got bad cuts and bruises and my daughter hit her forehead on the corner of the coffee table. She had to get two stitches. Those two incidents were very scary. I get hysterical. I can not handle such things. I pray to God my children will always be healthy and I will be strong for them. Unfortunately I am not strong. I can not help it. I lose my mind. Please forgive me God and help me be strong for my children.

New Year Update

It's a new year and a new beginning. I feel this will be a great year in my life. I plan on focusing a lot of my time on a new business idea. I want to dedicate my time and passion to this idea and I want to give a piece of me to this world. With the will of God I wont lose focus.

My health is stable thanks to God. I take my Avonex once a week. I eat well, but still don't eat the way I'd like. I still eat white rice and white bread occasionally. I try to stick to spelt bread if i have it. I have not been going to Yoga for the past few weeks and I want to go back to going at least twice a week. My mood has been alright but I still feel I can be extremely irritable at times, but I'd rather not focus on that. I pray this year will be great for me physically, spiritually, mentally and financially.

Reminder of Death

A relative of my husband died a few days ago and it reminded me how strange life really is. Death will happen to everyone, but no one really takes the time out to think about it and its implications. The relative who died was relatively young and suffered the last few years of her life due to cancer,leaving three great children and a husband. They were all her support and were very strong for her till the very end. They accepted her death saying she is now in a better place where she is not suffering. For she suffered a lot and they wanted her to be at peace.
The question we should all ask our self is, "What do we want to leave behind when we leave this space in time?" I want to leave a legacy for my children and the world. I want to have a global impact on people in a positive way. I want to be remembered as a person who preached greatness and who lived a full vibrant successful life. I want to be remembered as the mother who loved and cherished her children more then anything in this world, the wife who was devout supportive and caring, the sister who was supportive and loving, the child who was grateful, loving and appreciative and the Muslim who was dedicated, loyal and deeply thankful to God.

Extremely Agitated

I have been feeling extremely agitated lately. Especially the day I take the injection and a few days after. I'm extremely agitated and moody. I hate it. I really do feel the medication is causing my extreme mood swings, or at least adding to them. I want to discuss this with my doctor on my next visit.