Vacation Update

So I came back from a vacation which I enjoyed tremendously. My body coped well with the strain of lots of walking and long air flights plus taking care of the kids. I still took my vitamins and ate as healthy as I could.

I experienced so many new things which let me get out of my box for a while, which was really amazing. We live so long in our routines that we forget the wonders of this amazing world.

I also did things that I normally would be scared to do. I have a fear of hights, yet I went on a very high cable car which had different stops up the mountains. I was quite nervous and holding tightly on to the kids, but I managed and was very happy I experienced it. I realized how much fear I have and how little fear most everyone around me had. I also realized I have more fear after I had children. I am afraid for them which heighten my fear.

There was this one man who was on stretchers who I admired tremendously. He went all the way up then walked on steep stairs that went around the mountain to a suspended bridge and it was a challenge for me without stretchers. I love it when I see people who are determined to experience things no matter what challenge they are facing. I pray I will be less afraid.

Feeling Great

Thanks to God, I am feeling great. I wake up early, I sleep deeply and I have good energy. I am accomplishing more then usual and I'm just feeling mentally and physically alive. I also have been going to exercise classes a lot more which definitely makes me feel stronger. Exercise is probably what is making me feel stronger. I would like to stick to at least 3 times a week going to my classes and I am happy. I am doing body balance, yoga, body pump and pilates. Body pump is great because i use weights, body balance, yoga and pilots i am using my own body for strength. I pray my business will also take off. Still have a lot of work to get it going, but I am hopeful.

Good News

So I went to the doctor yesterday to follow up on the blood tests and MRI that i did. It has been six months since I stopped taking the medication and I was a bit nervous. Are there going to be new lesions? Will I have to go back on the medication? I had felt a bit of tingling in my head and I also had headaches recently but i was also very tired because of other life situations i was going through. So, these were the thoughts i had. I have been so happy not having to take the injections and I didn't feel depressed at times like I did when I was on the medication.

Thankfully when the doctor opened up my reports he told me that all was great! No new lesions and the old ones have had no significant change. My blood tests were also all good. I am very relieved and happy and I want to remain commited to my health. With the will of God, I will remain strong and sturdy without the medication. I still want to commit more to doing more excersize and of course stick to taking my vitamins.

Update

I haven't been sleeping very deeply lately and I am feeling more tired then usual. I want to go to the doctor today and do complete blood work. I won't be doing my next MRI until November. By then it would have been six months since I took my last injection. I hope things would have either remained the same or improved.

Feeling Fantasic

I'm on vacation now visiting my family and I've started taking Pilates classes. I go three times a week and use pilates machines, first the reformer and now the cadilac. Pilates is proving to be the best work out i've done yet. It tones, trims and elongates the body, work on inner body balance, it is a holistic type of workout. I am feeling strong and healthy. With the will of God, I will keep to exercising at least three times a week.

Excited About LIfe

So I went to see the doctor I talked about and it was a great visit. He was very supportive of my need to stop taking the drugs and he said he doesn't recommend staying on these drugs for longer then a year and half anyway because our bodes build resistance to them. He reviewed my last two MRI's saying that things remained the same and stable and I should come back to him in six months to do my next MRI to see how I am doing off the drugs. The last MRI I did was a year ago.

I haven't seen this doctor for 2 and a half years. He was my original doctor, but after I had my last big relapse two and half years ago, I had gone to another doctor for another opinion and he suggested I start a medication. Something I didn't necessarily want to do but I was too weak hearted and scared so I gave in and started the drug therapy. Despite the fact that I don't think medication is the answer for MS, I am happy I experienced MS taking the meds. It has made me more commited to my health. I eat better then ever, I am commited to taking my vitamins and I have started excersizing again.

The hardship of having to commit to first giving myself injections 3 times a week on Rebif was the most challenging time of the disease. The side effects took away any energy that I had and took away from the quality of my life. When I finally said I enough, the doctor asked me to try Avonex which would have fewer side effects and only be injected once a week. So I went on Avonex for the next 18 months. The side effects were much less and more tolerable. I only felt body weakeness the day of the injection and it did not last long. However, I do feel these drugs increased my anxiety and temperament.

Now that I am drug free I'm so excited about life! Now I know if I lose my temper with my kids it is because of my own weakness and not from any negative influence form a drug! I am committed more then ever to myself. The holistic aproach will be my medication. I will cleanse my thoughts by listening to James Allen on a daily basis, my spirit by praying, my body by eating great foods and excersizing. With the will of God, I will purify my character more each day and enjoy life knowing that I am relying on myself not a drug for my health.

Making Decisions

I have finally made the decision to stop medication. May 20th was my last injection. Two days before my 31st birthday. I have been feeling tingling in my arms and legs on and off for the past week or so but I have had that while on the medication so I am not worried. I feel strong and positive and ready to take on the world. I take my vitamins on a regular basis, I eat well and I'm going to join the gym soon.

What incouraged me to finally make this decision was when I called up the neurologist I used to visit before my current doctor. I explained to him I have been on the drugs for more then 2 and half years and I was ready to take a break. I was never dependent on drugs for five years before i started them and I don't want to be on them now. He was the first doctor who said what I wanted to hear. He said it would be fine to stop. It just took a doctor to tell me that and I finally felt I could do it! NO FEAR! That is the most important part. I could get off the drug with complete confidence. With the will of God, I am going to be better then ever before. My body will do its own healing with my support to my immune system. I believe in the miracle of my body and I know it is capable of unraveling my MS.