Feeling Stable

I've almost finished another month on Avonex and things are ok. I'm tolerating the medication fine. I do have to take a few panadol the day of the shot and feel physically more tired the day after, my mood is also quite low at that time, but other then that, I'm fine. I only take the essential vitamins and not the full does. I want to start to take the full dosage which is 8 pills a day, plus add on some of the other vitamins. I am working on my business idea and I'm very excited about it. I know it will be amazing and lead me to exciting possibilities, always with the will of God.

Confusion

Since the last time I wrote, I started to feel that maybe I should go back on the medication. I felt good, slept better, but started to feel a bit insecure about being off. It's strange, as much as I'd like to stay off, maybe its not just the right time now. I mean the main real side effect I felt was mood disturbance. I started to feel that I needed to give the medication more time. I went back to my Neuro and he thought it was a wise idea for me to go back on. I got myself another box and it's sitting there in the fridge waiting for me. I will take my shot tomorrow. With the will of God, I am making the right decision. I always pray and tell God, "only you know, guide me on the right path." I will still remain healthy and make wise decisions.

Sleeping Better

I am sleeping better these days. Still not a deep sleep from start to finish but getting there. My mood is good and consistent. Feeling more confident about stopping the medication. With the will of God, by the end of the month I will make the right decision.

Cancelled the MRI

After reading about the harmful effects an MRI could have on a person, I decided to cancel it and do it after another six months. I did one six months ago and I don't have any new physical complaints so I realized it wasn't necessary to do one now. My Neuro wasn't even the one who suggested it to me, I told him I wanted to do one even though he probably didn't think it was necessary.
I realized to much knowledge can also be very crippling and make a person very indecisive. I'm just going to lay low and just put my trust in God. I have been very worried lately. Questioning if my stopping avonex was a good idea. I mean I have only missed one shot which was five days ago, and I feel I have been having insomnia. I thought maybe it was a side effect of stopping the medication. I called my Neuro and he of course said, it was probably just me being over worried. For now, I'm not going to think any further about the topic and i'm goign to go to sleep.

Off Avonex

I went to see my doctor. I told him I felt the medication was effecting my mood, so he said I can take a month break from the medication to see if its from MS or the Avonex. I am going to take an MRI as well and see how things are going. With the will of God, I am improving and being off the medication means I will have more energy to live my life to the fullest. Today I am going back to Yoga!

Making a Commitment

I have had it with the way I feel depleted of energy these days. My arms and legs are weak. I have a low mood low everything. I don't believe the medication is doing me justice. I want to stop now. I will go and see my doctor and tell him my plans to take a break from the meds. I will then focus on life! I will focus on health! I will have energy to do that! I believe in my heart its the right thing to do with the will of God I will stick to my decision.

Inspired By Nick Vujicic

This morning I woke up and got a forward from a friend. I opened it up to read an inspirational speech from a 25 year old man who was born without limbs. No arms and no legs! I watched his youtube speech and was in awe of his incredible strength and adorable personality. He has a great sense of humor! Despite the challenge of living in a society where different is not always tolerated, he overcame all odds inspiring others to see that God can help you overcome anything. God bless Nick Vujicic and his message.