Extreme Fatigue

I have been feeling extremely tired for the past few months. I haven't had a housekeeper since beginning of September so more then two months and a half. This happened to me before about two years ago. My old housekeeper left and It took a long time for the replacement to come. I remember how hard it was for me then as well. I wake up everyday with pain in the soles of my feet and heels. I drag myself out of bed get the lunch boxes ready send off the kids to school and tidy the house as much as I can. I miss having more energy to do more things.

I think about energy a lot lately. I want to do so much to increase it. I am trying to eat well, but it's hard to enjoy eating when you are always doing things in the house for the kids and homework and baths and reading. Kids are also hard to handle when you are tired. I pray I will be a better mother. Have more patience. But it's so hard when you are facing physical challenges and no one really understands what you are going through. My comfort is that God does. He knows exactly how I am feeling, therefore I leave it to you God.

I have so many things I want to accomplish but so little energy. I will probably be getting a new housekeeper at the beginning of 2012. I pray she will be good and that 2012 will be my best year yet! As I sit here on the computer I feel every joint and muscle in my body ache. I know this feeling will not last and that maybe in the next hour or so I will feel better. It's like that for me. I go through different energy levels throughout the day. One hour I feel useless with absolutely no energy and the next I feel a bit better. I know this is all because I don't get enough sleep and rest. I don’t need more than 8 hours of sleep a night, but what I do need is non interrupted sleep. My daughter God bless her usually wakes me up once in the night.

Last night I worked until 10:30 on my business even though i really shouldn’t' have. I keep telling myself I wont work on anything after 8 to give my mind peace and rest before I sleep, but there is so much work to be done and I really want our business to be a success. I want to have a steady income from my own business. In today’s turbulent market I feel this is what will secure my future. With the will of God, all my fatigue and daily physically challenges will all pay off.

Still Incredibly Happy to be off Drugs

It's been a while since I last updated my blog. Life is good thanks to God. I'm currently on vacation. I had a very challenging time before I came home to visit my parents. My daughter had to do an operation to remove her tonsils. My housekeeper left and I had to look for a replacement. I feel so much pressure when i have a lot of events hit at once. Now I feel fantastic. I'm eating well, sleeping well, life is good. I always feel so wonderful when I enter my parents house. It's comfort, joy, peace of mind. My kids are also having a great time. I enrolled them in a summer camp which is keeping them busy.

I'm going to update my website pages today and add Dr. Mercola's website. I've been reading his updates for the past few months and I just love the information he brings. Really by far the best Natural Health Newsletter I've ever received.

I am waiting to hear fromt the client for a poject for my business. I'm still very hopeful. I believe it will be a huge success with the will of God.

Not Sleeping Well

Well my mood has been normal, and not much to complain about except I have not been sleeping well for the past few days maybe two weeks. Just don't sleep deeply and wake up during the night. It get's me a bit worried about my health. Due to the lack of sleep, i only went to the gym once this week, which i'm not to happy about. With the will of God my body will snap back and I will be able to get deep sleep soon.

Vacation Update

So I came back from a vacation which I enjoyed tremendously. My body coped well with the strain of lots of walking and long air flights plus taking care of the kids. I still took my vitamins and ate as healthy as I could.

I experienced so many new things which let me get out of my box for a while, which was really amazing. We live so long in our routines that we forget the wonders of this amazing world.

I also did things that I normally would be scared to do. I have a fear of hights, yet I went on a very high cable car which had different stops up the mountains. I was quite nervous and holding tightly on to the kids, but I managed and was very happy I experienced it. I realized how much fear I have and how little fear most everyone around me had. I also realized I have more fear after I had children. I am afraid for them which heighten my fear.

There was this one man who was on stretchers who I admired tremendously. He went all the way up then walked on steep stairs that went around the mountain to a suspended bridge and it was a challenge for me without stretchers. I love it when I see people who are determined to experience things no matter what challenge they are facing. I pray I will be less afraid.